people say

they wouldn't understand what you and i share.

i think it's better that we keep it secret -

keep how deep it is a secret

keep how we-finish-each-other's-sentences a secret

keep our more-than-friends,-more-than-family,-more-than-lovers relationship a secret

we may be far but never were we.

i love you

20th weds in ord time

There may be people more qualified than you (like the position for the king of trees, the buckthorn was the least qualified) but whenever God calls you to assume a position, do not refuse Him. He will provide you with the needfuls to do your task well.

One more thing - do not question God's generosity. The reward is the same for all although you have just served Him a little. Mas matindi pa nga yung magnanakaw crucified at His Son's right - imagine just before dying, he repented and he was rewarded the same for the minimal effort.

Aha, para din pala itong work hard and work smart - tama ba?

judgemental minds

the more you are gearing towards mediocrity, the more narrow your mnd gets.

open up! not everybody is like you.

accept it! only the ACCEPTANCE of the truth will set you free.

live life! view life trough your eyes, and not somebody else's.

i miss my bff, an! it's a good thing my beb, tin is keeping me sane as possible.

the long easter snip!

insecurity sinks in when girls or gay guys see someone with long hair. and the first jump of self preservation is to cut it - cut it really short!

lucky for you if you're in the industry, u readily release your frustrations with your clients.

too bad if not, u need to go trough the process of 1. befriending, 2. gaining the trust of the long-haired fella 3. suggeting to get the cut (blame the weather or quote a false article on how u can get cancer out of having a long hair)

why don't you just accept the fact that you really want that do, too!

oy...

keber, i am still blonde anyway!

clean fun - sumagot agad si asa!

chotichot (3/28/2009 2:49:37 PM): nasa blog kita

asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:51:07 PM): hahaha ok yan

chotichot (3/28/2009 2:51:42 PM): whorkkk (nasuka ako on my mouth)

asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:53:03 PM): madalas talaga boring magpakatino noh?
asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:53:05 PM): hahaha
asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:55:28 PM): minsan talaga napapaisip ako na marami ang favor sa isang side na mali tapos nag-iisa ka lang sa side na tama..iisipin mo tama ba talaga ako?...eh kasi feeling nila ang "mali" nagiging tama pag marami sila at ang "tama" ay nagiging mali pag nag-iisa ka lang..
asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:55:31 PM): ung lang
asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:55:33 PM): hehehe

may punto ang batang ire!

clean fun - sumagot agad si asa!

chotichot (3/28/2009 2:49:37 PM): nasa blog kita

asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:51:07 PM): hahaha ok yan

chotichot (3/28/2009 2:51:42 PM): whorkkk (nasuka ako in my mouth)

asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:53:03 PM): madalas talaga boring magpakatino noh?
asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:53:05 PM): hahaha
asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:55:28 PM): minsan talaga napapaisip ako na marami ang favor sa isang side na mali tapos nag-iisa ka lang sa side na tama..iisipin mo tama ba talaga ako?...eh kasi feeling nila ang "mali" nagiging tama pag marami sila at ang "tama" ay nagiging mali pag nag-iisa ka lang..
asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:55:31 PM): ung lang
asa_blink88 (3/28/2009 2:55:33 PM): hehehe

may punto ang batang ire!

clean fun

i abhore clean fun. as much as i can, i try to make it dugyot. the bad-der, the better. and fun is different when it's not clean. you get a rep for that and i love the attention, i love the label.

lately, i have been hanging out with clean fun friends. we meet, have dinner and part ways. sometimes, we sing at karaoke bars or watch movies but that's it. i don't like it all - abrupt meeting without any meaty confessions or revelations you get when everybody's dead drunk.

anthony's perception on things - clean fun is beneficial to YOU. why hate it?

kelan pa naging masama ang maging mabait or matino? - i ask myself. wala naman, the non-judmental me just categorized it as "boring."

alright, i'll give it a shot - maturity, here we come!

the sabotage - progress report

i have resisted the urge to back out the last minute.

it feels great! not very friendly to the pocket tho :j

hello rob rob, it was nice meeting you again! welcome to my life (madrama!)

gokou

my sister, tin would always pick the names of our dogs. as you would know, gokou was named as such during the dragon ball mania. tin was in elementary that time. gokou had a son - gohan (who would guess that?!)

pitz are feisty and snobs. they don't wanna be pet, they jsut want to be left to the barking all day and night.

* 5.26.2010 this was on my draft list for a long time - hindi ko na lama san patungo itong kwento na ito....

the lowest of the low's

chotichot (3/20/2009 4:17:14 PM): bakit ndi pwede buzz sau?
chotichot (3/20/2009 4:17:19 PM): mmmmbbbbuzzzzzz
chotichot (3/20/2009 4:17:21 PM): buzzz

chotichot (3/20/2009 4:17:26 PM): hi sir, kamustasa!
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:18:31 PM): mmmmbuzzz
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:18:43 PM): sir, kausapin mo naman ako pls...

tbillena (3/20/2009 6:19:31 PM): waaaa busy po...sa office po...andito boss ko, may malaki akong kasalanan...hindi ko natawagan ang mga parents na kukuha ng card..

chotichot (3/20/2009 6:21:01 PM): ay sha
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:21:21 PM): dont fret, just remember rural and its wonderful memries (naks)
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:21:25 PM): para happy ka
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:21:50 PM): sige, kaya yan - u can get out alive out of any sitch
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:22:09 PM): we, the ipil clas of 94-95 have faith in u (isa pang naks)
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:22:14 PM): let tessier work mode

tbillena (3/20/2009 6:22:31 PM): thanks for the encouragement chot..
tbillena (3/20/2009 6:22:42 PM): dito hindi pwede ang yung ignore mo mga parents..
tbillena (3/20/2009 6:23:27 PM): pag card giving...pag d sila dumating. dapat tawagan mo..ikaw ang mag make ng effort na contact sila..ganun..

chotichot (3/20/2009 6:26:00 PM): spoiled pala mga parents dyan
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:26:06 PM): at least now alam mo na db

tbillena (3/20/2009 6:26:29 PM): opo
tbillena (3/20/2009 6:26:35 PM): grabe...sige chot...
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:28:02 PM): enjoy!

tbillena (3/20/2009 6:28:58 PM): weeeee
tbillena (3/20/2009 6:29:04 PM): thanks for the hug....

chotichot (3/20/2009 6:29:34 PM): no froblem...
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:29:51 PM): i-reserve mo pa itong isa kapag nalolongkot ka
chotichot (3/20/2009 6:30:00 PM):

tbillena (3/20/2009 6:30:08 PM): salamat talaga...
tbillena (3/20/2009 6:30:11 PM): grabe
tbillena (3/20/2009 6:30:15 PM): parang dito eh
tbillena (3/20/2009 6:30:18 PM): ang eng eng ko

chotichot (3/20/2009 6:32:01 PM): ako din nga eh, kaya nga gusto ko sana kau kausapin dhl kelangan ko din ng assurance ng ndi ako boblaks pero ur experiencing the same thing pala. let us support each other. have a nice day!

the perfect workplace

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:12:26 PM): tlgang natigil na any mental functions by 6pm
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:12:31 PM): so dont fret

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:12:48 PM): hehe..uu nga..nde n mgfunction e..

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:15:24 PM): in effect
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:15:40 PM): nagsasayang lang ang company na tikal
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:15:56 PM): kasi ndi naman makakawork ng beyond 8hrs ang tao
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:16:01 PM): and sayang sa utilities

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:16:01 PM): oo nga.

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:16:19 PM): o well, kaya kapag tau ay maging business magnate na
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:16:31 PM): kelangan komnpanyang may fuso!

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:16:42 PM): hahaha..may fuso nman d2 ah
melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:16:48 PM): at least la pasok ng sat.

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:19:58 PM): ndi pa rin ideal db

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:20:14 PM): dinescribe ko lang ang ideal company ko
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:20:20 PM): maraming breaks
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:20:22 PM): flexitime

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:20:31 PM): ryt..gusto ko din flexitime

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:20:38 PM): pwede outside of the office magwork
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:20:39 PM): ganun

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:20:43 PM): yung tipong kung anu oras tyo ok mgwork

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:20:54 PM): more freedom, more space for creativity

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:20:56 PM): homebased? u mean?
melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:21:10 PM): ah ok..magtayo ka ng sarili mung company!

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:21:28 PM): sort of, may required days lang na pasok
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:21:39 PM): kaya nga, pioneer ako nyan sa pinas
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:21:44 PM): sa states may ganyan na
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:21:52 PM): kaya na-enganyo ako mag-audit tuloy

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:22:00 PM): usually d2 sten pede lng homebased ata IT e.

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:22:01 PM): eh ganun pa rin pala set up sa pinas,
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:22:04 PM): saaaaddddnesss
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:22:24 PM): kaya yan, lahat homebased!
chotichot (3/19/2009 6:22:35 PM): lahat ng departments!

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:23:01 PM): hahaha..sna tyo mging homebased na!


chotichot (3/19/2009 6:23:12 PM): gusto ko na kumain ng ulam mo

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:23:20 PM): haha..kain ka na

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:23:41 PM): eh after 7pm na

melodybaylosis_4b (3/19/2009 6:23:49 PM): bket?

chotichot (3/19/2009 6:24:08 PM): may mata

silent treatment

i never wanted to be in a fight but sometimes someone gets entangled in my weirded-out world that they never know how to respond but be mad at me.

and so that day came that my boss asked me about the report i am currently working on, i said nothing. he asked me again but i didn't respond. he jokingly asked me again, but i felt i have nothing to say. i was frustrated and i didn't want him to know about it.

back at yah, now he doesn't speak to me.

perfect!

extinguishment applies

i have accumulated a great amount of debt and mostly from friends.

it is so overwhelming to know that they understand our current family situation and since it has been long overdue, some have aired out their intent to just let it pass - to extinguish it!

i cannot thank them enough, it will be of much help to us.

i have chosen a bunch of great people as friends afterall!

toss to you, doods, doooodetes and semi, half-half loves of my life!

cultured souls

haters are those who do not understand (and refuse to).

it might be our filipino culture that we tend to grab and pull down anybody who is on top of the ladder with any means possible.

i suggest that we should get cultured.

get out and enjoy life, have a trip abroad.

engage in witty conversations.

and maybe, just maybe - we'll realize that those we hate the most are the exact people we really want to be.

thanks es for being a non-hater, salute to you!

the sabotage

i have been having problems - with fun. subconsciously, i have indeed been causing any frivolous event to crash and burn (in my head). i would be excited of a trip or a dinner with friends but when the time grows close, i have this temptemption to cancel at the last minute - and if i do force myself to go, as i have said, i sabotage it in my head (an apparently sees the mental murder).

confort in silence

there are steps in plunging into a relationship - whether platonic or romantic. some of the relationships accelerate and jump into the next few steps faster than the average per step period.

i believe in quality over quantity, and i believe , too that once you've reached that relationship pedestal you would be at ease with silence even if you're together.

talking is for the getting-to-know-you stge, to tell the other party of what happened to your day or just plain information of your past or dreams.

do not be alarmed that your hubbie or wifey or bff sudenly became comfortable in not telling you anything even when you're together. you should be congratulated instead - this is the next and final step of your relationship - say hello to the "mime"

this doesn't mean that the relationship had gotten bland or this is start of the anti-climactic phase of the relationship. in reality, you are in the blissful plateau!

Australia

it was a long movie, a lot of climaxes since conflicts involved personal and national (it was set during the war).

the audience: filipinos do not react on scenes the way i do (yes, i excluded myself from the "usual" bunch). they laugh at what they know little of or at those that are different or strage from their normal routine. heck, of course it was set in an era and place different from ours of course, most are different. i hat it when the laughed at the aboriginy dood who pops unexpectedly from scene to scene. you can have your laugh for the first few instances that you see this dood. but enough is enough, why laugh until the very last moment that he appears. hay naku (as rich's mom would exlaim her dismay)!

how writers write

the text in white is how i write but that in pomelo pink is an's edited version - what a transformation!
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Forty years ago was a struggle for our batch and for the country. We were fresh graduates from high school and full of dreams in our pockets and yet our surroundings were just calling for mere survival. We stood proud against that dictatorship - not even it can stand between us and our stars.

Batch _(year)_ was a youthful band of vulnerables, audience to how the country’s history was sculpted, spirits were cut up, and power was exploited. Overrated as it may seem now, survival was the everyday theme asked from fresh high school graduates. We were kids. Strive and struggle was necessary but amidst the national conflict, the young of 40 years ago managed to scramble and be victors. Even with the clenched sprightliness, suffocating frustration brought by dictatorship, our dreams were hot and heavy! Even that era failed to kill these dreams.

And so we succeeded to surpass that phase - both our young batch and the country and as all saying goes that the most beautiful and bountiful trees are those that grow in adversary - and so did we.

The most beautiful and bountiful trees are those that grow in adversary - and so did we.

Change is inevitable. Time does not favor anybody - yes we did get a little bit chunky here and there and less dashing as we once were (just a little bit), charismatic nonetheless but these are just the manifestations of our life history. We change as our stories prosper. And they are great stories.

We are now not only professionals in our chosen fields but we are now leaders. We are not only sons and daughters but are also fathers and mothers (grandparents even!). We are not only the hopeful dreamers but we are also active doers.

Changes made our lives and friendships made them bearable.

the name game

everybody experiences the exact same thing at a given time - say, tequilla always brings out the emo in you, or no. 2's can never be no. 1's and so on.

we have developed a strategy of using the proper to be the common term, for exampol -

nae-AJ (or naba-Bart) = malapit ka ng lumampas sa pagiging friendly at maging obsessed sa friend mo, ergo you want to be more than friends

list to be completed soon (gasp!)

the presidential note

it may be my resume under "other interests," i jot down my passion for teaching and my part time experience in online writing...

i thought it was only "palabok" but i never knew that would give my big boss an idea to assign me this very personal and sensitive job of writing his message for their 40th highschool reunion (which happens to be my HS arch enemy!)

what you hear is how you think

people who think alike hear alike. note robin padilla's liveraide commercial - anthony, the auditor-slash-seatmate and i were arguing about what the brother of bebe gandanghari said in his last line.

i said it is - it's liver or lover, boy

but he said - it's liver lover, boy

curse robin's way with words, he tends to eat some of it (cookie monster of words) but the point is - majority of the my ym poll respondents was for me but aimee, the rommie was the one and only pro-anthony.

anthony - a timid but very smart lad

aimee - a loud but not very clever gal

both from outside the metro, is it their similar culture? or their upbringing?

why am i wasting time with robin? must be that dying-of-boredom day at the office which turned out to be psychoanalysis day.

think

think

and the bubble psycho test says...

an, may on-off bff has recommended the bubble test. she will be publishing it soon to help the lost decipher what's causing what in their lives. at first, i thought i knew what my problem was - i am fat. my insecurities all boils down to this fact. but the bubbles pointed me to an unexpected root - my name! the bitch has been causing all this? whoa! what a sudden turn!