my imaginary friend

i didn't have anything close to that when i was a kid but i can say that my relationships at present are somewhat like that.

no one sees Him except you
you know he exist even if you have no proof
you are easily discouraged when people tell you "be realistic" or "you should have outgrown this, you should see a doctor"

but has He failed you in occasions you needed your friend the most? He's been there during your first heartache, your first job interview, your first travel abroad. He's been so reliable - why aren't you doubting Him now?

these doubts will go away, don't let it interfere with this wonderful thing you have with Him. afterall, He has told you to pursue your dream and you did, just be patient with the rest - have some faith that all will fall into place.

be genuinely happy for once

people are selfish - they tend to connect things to themselves like

1. congrats - kapag sikat ka na, wag mong kalimutan kunin anak ko ha (or AKO)
2. ano? resigned ka na? pano ung utang mo sa akin (or yun pending incentive computation)?
3. anak, pano na gamot ko?

alam ko na yan eh, hindi ko naman nakalimutan yan

can we just stick to -

CONGRATS MAN, U DESERVE THIS

or

SAYA SAYA SAYA SAYA SAYA

thank u an and tin, love u guys!

i think of 6 impossible things over breakfast

1. deadline for my transcription initially moved to 2 days, now for another 2 days
2. mama tom gladly giving me one of her tapays
3. willingness to extend for another month at solar (final answer)

4. through mom's persistence and friends' prayers, release of caritas check today
5. yesterday's meetings (which i was agitated about last week) being actually easy breezy and all at their "alpha" state, non-resistance mode
6. be at my full potential - earning 1M PHP monthly while doing what i truly love (standing ovations and various awards to my debut play both local and international)

my offer to the church

yung artsy tendencies namin ni tin, i believe we got from lola's side kay mom. kaya si mom marunong mag-bead work, mala-raven baxter si mom na designs and sews her clothes before.

kaya offer ni mom to the church would be sewing the beadwork ng mga damit ng santo.

last project namin as a family was the kumot ng holy sepulcre - tinuruan kami ni mom mag-bead work, kami ni tin

segway - si dad may project din ung mother of perpetual help na lalagyan nya ng stones ung picture, para magka-depth. hayun - walang nanyari dun, haha! sorry naman, kakatawa si dad eh, teady bear (birrrr)

my offer to the church will be different of course, ako gagawa ng plays kapag holy week and christmas, weee lavet!

my thank you letter to my dear cg-mates

dear wednesday group,

remember the time when i first shared what my biggest "what if" in life? i remembered that we were brainstorming on how i'd penetrate the theater industry when i don't have any recent expenriences nor any credentials to back me up. but your faces were so enthused with helping me plan out my career shift. it all started there.

next thing i did was approach bro. george and volunteered for a scriptwriting post. they happily welcomed me and later assigned me some episodes but my demons, that time were too strong for me - i didn't deliver.

but the voices grew stronger, louder that it overthrown the doubts, the thoughts of uncertainty. those voices included the kid in me - telling me that i work wonders when i'm doing what i love.

then i started writing again for my 1st directoral play (writer-slash-director in the hawsssieee) just a few days after that - i bravely resigned with no plans whatsoever (sarap ng feeling, literal na nahugutan ako ng tinik). opportunities started to manifest - i was given a set of episode assignments again for mustard tv then a friend from st. andrew's informed me that we could sell my play script to her friend then jay informed me that he can introduce me to friends who could help me out with the melody of my songs (the play is a musical, btw). AMAZING! PRAISE GOD!

and just last saturday when i watched the shooting of my scripts for mustard, they requested that i direct the next 2 episodes! this is so fast and i'm loving it (LAVET)!!!

and guess what (what?) - by just fulfilling your personal legend, you also bless others to be brave and dream again. my sister lost her fire and she deliberately turned her back from her dream of becoming a monique lhuillier (even when opportunities are right in front of her) but she was inspired to draw when she saw me writing again - she still has it daw (guys, kung ano man yan - it will ALWAYS be there, it will never go. it's part of your system). i can see the enthusiasm when she talks about her runway debut plans for her 21st birthday. MINDBLOWING!

i believe that its never too late to chase your dreams and it's such perfect timing because i know how fame could get into my head before. now, i am just so blessed and i acknowledged completely that without His grace and your prayers, none of this would have happened. i'm such a big talker before but now i'm a big --- actor? (haha)

my biggest challenge now would be doing what i love and at the same time provide for my family temporarily while we haven't sold our house. hey, maybe God really doesn't want us to sell the house, he'll just increase my earning capacity so i can finance for my family's needs entirely! i never know but i am excited - INDEED!

nakakahiya humiling kay Lord kapag pera na usapan noh. and i totally lose finesse kapag natataranta na ako and i need the money asap (sorry for my worry text last week). but sobrang nakakawindang what our group's prayers can do so let us just continue praying for each other's financial woes (and all else in between). "earn my first 1M peysos" nga prayer intention ko before db - let's make it "for each of us to earn his/her 1st 1M before 12/31/2010 (make it "next" 1M if may naka-earn na sa atin ng 1M)" hoy hindi installment basis ha, as in 1M PHP check in your name or in your bank acocunt or COLD CASH! AMEN!

i know sobrang daming blessings nangyari sa group natin, i wish we will continue to be blessed and open with our new cg groups. i still pray for you guys, sobrang naging support group ko kayo sa big bad world of makati, i love you ("kapag tumibok ang puso" on the background).

jay, i can't wait to hear your kwento! make time for us on thursday after the feast ha :)

GROUP HUGGGGGGG

your kumare for life,
maria preciosa (pls lang, sikretong malupeeet yan!)

documentation

i am a visual person

gusto ko may kaakibat na pictures kada entry ko, cameraaaaaaa

getting to know you with joyee

last tuesday, nag-date kami ni co-apprentice joy. hindi pwede si ate mara kasi. nag-starbuko at jupitah then dinnah at chariya, beside my dorm

funnnn

go na talaga yang career shift, i'm really inspiring a lot of people.

yung finances na nga lang - Lord, i trust You, deliver meeeee

crowding

gusto ko isahan, on the bulk - hindi ako comfortable sa installments.

7-day diets instead na total change of eating habits
sa work din - ayaw ko magbigay ng drafts, kelangan perfect na kagad
same goes with payments - kaya lalo naiipon

this should change, i will change

great work

as i was reading mayi's reply e-mail - wow, i can't believe my eyes. my works are always great daw - medyo hindi na ako sanay napupuri. well, i should be - kasi mag-eexcel na naman ako sa field i like.

thank you mayi for the encouragement.

thank you, Lord and please let me believe that i am really great.

i am great

i am great... (letting it sink in)

claire at her 1st photo exhibit

it was the opening of kraft's photo exhibit last night and one of claire's photo was included.

i'm a proud momma

the manang at church

the manang at church who said that i have a bad singing voice and i should transfer to another parish shaked my faith and my willingness to serve at st. andrew.

gulong-gulo na nga tita christie sa akin kasi ndi nya maintindihan which sched i am really comfortable with.

nakwento ko uli today - to ken naman. amazingly, no more reliving the hurt. tita marg has really healed me, she was the last person i made kwento and all out iyak kami.

i finally forgive you, manang. kuna nasan ka man (or baka lumipat ka na ng parish dahil sa akin)