Wisdom 2:23-3:9

23 God formed man to be imperishable; the image of his own nature he made him. 24 But by the envy of the devil, death entered the world, and they who are in his possession experience it. 3: 1 But the souls of the just are in the hand of God, and no torment shall touch them. 2 They seemed, in the view of the foolish, to be dead; and their passing away was thought an affliction 3 and their going forth from us, utter destruction. But they are in peace. 4 For if before men, indeed, they be punished, yet is their hope full of immortality; 5 chastised a little, they shall be greatly blessed, because God tried them and found them worthy of himself. 6 As gold in the furnace, he proved them, and as sacrificial offerings he took them to himself. 7 In the time of their visitation they shall shine, and shall dart about as sparks through stubble; 8 they shall judge nations and rule over peoples, and the LORD shall be their King forever. 9 Those who trust in him shall understand truth, and the faithful shall abide with him in love: Because grace and mercy are with his holy ones, and his care is with the elect.

I am not excluded from pain just because I serve Him more now. I can only endure it more because I have faith that He is with me through it all - I try to look at the aftermath, my future me looking through this past trial and cheering her on "Chot, keri mo yan - look at me now! Fix your eye on the prize!"

I start at Day 1 again

I hated mistakes because as students we were trained to perfect a test, etc. I just allowed myself recently to love the imperfect me - it's hard but I really do try.

I believe I commit mistakes even if I try not to because it makes me more human, more compassionate of the people around me. Imagine the perfect me would definitely look down at "you people". You earn that sense of pride to exclude yourself from the rest.

I am thankful for my mistakes, I am thankful that I always have a "do it again Day 1"everyday for not drinking coffee or being nice to ALL, etc

Thanks for the hurt

How do you say "thank you" when you don't want what is happening in your life?

I just remind myself of the analogy of the aquarium fishes and how they cowared away from their owner-slash-feeder when they see this humongous creature. He loves them and cares for them but we, the fish can only see the "OMG, here comes this scary creature again, hide!"

I may not understand now but I know something grand is coming my way. I just rely on the promise.

Initial reaction will always be frustration, hopelessness (drama queening mode) but then I stop and quiet down and say my thank you. My outlook suddenly changes then I go back to work happier.

failures

based on stats, a billionnaire takes about 18 failures in his lifetime before he succeeds.

today, i have my failure 1 for the year when i was not included in the semi-finalists of a modelling search, 17 to go (i've got to a lot in the past - will add that soon)

may kirot syempre but it will pass

getting more from less

I used to have too much fun over the weekends but now - not so. I begin to appreciate the things I have and those I only have once in a while.

My gratitude list for Aug 20-21, 2011 weekend:
1) Thanks to Anj for letting me shower at her place,
2) For Annie for letting me stay at their house,
3) For experiencing riding in the metro again through MRT and FX which was easy and cheap,
4) For meeting new friends at the RBA seminar
5) Sir Alvin agreeing to learn under his guidance, apprenticeship mode
6) For meeting new and old friends
7) Thank you to Sato for lending me a camera
8) Thanks you for the pictures.

Super happy!

Batangas is changing me for the better

I have a lot of things to thank Batangas for. Basically, it involves trying new things. I used to be so overwhelmed of the idea of change but now, with encouragement of family and friends, I am taking one baby step everyday.

Thank you Batangas for:
1) My bea-ooooo-tiful morning everyday
2) My view of the forest at the rooftop
3) Lomi at Benok's
4) Bulalo at Tessie's
5) New friends at Porch, Central, 28 4 and Tessie's
6) Food trip at the Night Market
7) Fresh fruits and veggies at the Morning Market
8) Hearing solemn Sunday mass at the Cathedral
9) Encouragement of new friends at the Cathedral to play instruments
10) Actualy playing the congas and the tambourine!
11) Inviting me to join them again the next time although I joined them late
12) Finally, tyring to jog (walk, mainly)
13) Making it a habit to "baby jog" at the office (and also transmitting the energy to Laguna, now I am also running with Micah in LB on Sundays)
14) Joining a fun run
15) Finishing a fun run
16) But wait there's more - continuing to jog even after the fun run

The list goes on! I am just perfectly happy here and I want to share this joy with my family and friends. Hope they can visit sometime :)

Robert Kiyosaki on "taking baby steps"

I just read the Cash Flow Quadrant recently and it thought me that basically change is also involves behavior modification. During the initial phase, do not exhaust yourself with grand actions, take smallest-almost-no-effort-in-your-part actions just for the sake of making yourself used to the change. Like putting piso in your FFA everyday which will sum up to a meager amount but hey, it's the non-saving pattern you want to break so amount does not count.

As you move to your new path, chnages also involves changes in the set of friends you hang out with. It was a blast spending time with carefree little sprites but time to move up.

I have never seen my mom so happy with me. It just took me to decide and made the first baby steps.

I am loving myself more

1st Calamansi Day

Usually, I can't sleep when I am excited with something. Today I woke up at 4AM to start with my calamansi morning regimen. Check out the site below for more info:

www.HealerInYou.com

I had a lot to eat and drink the previous night so while preparing the calamansi, I was wishing oh so hard that I would not feel any sudden acidic reaction in my tummy. You know what (What?), calamansi is indeed not acidic, my tummy is just fine.

Ya-yahooooo

:)

Coaching and Counselling

Una sa lahat, hindi ako si Arthur!

old habits

i just had that same "in doubt" feel - i listened to it more intensely now. and i had my first real conversation with myself - i was telling me that i am reverting to my old habits and beliefs again and at the end, i will wonder (again) what went wrong expecting new results with the same actions

controls

funny how i am an internal auditor and yet i exercise no controls with my life. i am always lagged down by temporary highs and when it's over, i aimlessly ponder again on the usuals "what do i REALLY want to do with my life?" sucks, right?

i just read on 2 examples of good companies gone bad during the early 2000's (which started the SOx). all of them has lack of control and concentrate on gaining profit "whatever it takes" setting aside business ethics

God talks in any medium possible. He even used these articles - thanks for the answers yo!

i am in the perfect industry - they say "theater kids" are perfect for auditing posts.

"tragedy"

like any other word in the dictionary, "tragedy" is subjective.

i admire japanese most especially in the recent tsunami/earthquake events that hit their country. although, most of us, filipinos would perceive them as "cold-hearted" - with no regards at all with the mortalities and destructions amidst them. let me share to you what a jap friend has to say in defense for his countrymen:

japanese are not very good with showing emotions, especially the men. so instead of just wallowing with the "now," they immediately think of ways to rebuild what is destroyed. perfect example is one bridge recontructed in 4 days after the tsunami.

i guess setting aside emotions works for them like wailing for filipinos - stirs up some creative idea or solution.

so another lesson learned from our jap brods (1. puntuality and 2. focus on day job - check).

the healthy me

the helathy me fights cough and colds in 1-2 days, the old me manages in a week.

i am happy :)

my addiction

sleep! lotsa of it.

especially now that i'm staying 5 mins away from the office. i can sleep 8-10 hours a day and boy i feel great!

the devil in me (and you)

the kontra bida is not around you or in the katauhan of bwisit na tao in the office or yung sumingit sau sa mrt.

sya ay namamahay inside of you - the one telling you that you can't do it, you don't deserve betterment in you life.

punch him right in the gut coz there is a promise - a promise that you are destined for greatness, for happiness.

whenever i forget, i close my eyes and remind myself this - this is just your present condition, things will eventually improve, just continue moving forward.