Wisdom 2:23-3:9

23 God formed man to be imperishable; the image of his own nature he made him. 24 But by the envy of the devil, death entered the world, and they who are in his possession experience it. 3: 1 But the souls of the just are in the hand of God, and no torment shall touch them. 2 They seemed, in the view of the foolish, to be dead; and their passing away was thought an affliction 3 and their going forth from us, utter destruction. But they are in peace. 4 For if before men, indeed, they be punished, yet is their hope full of immortality; 5 chastised a little, they shall be greatly blessed, because God tried them and found them worthy of himself. 6 As gold in the furnace, he proved them, and as sacrificial offerings he took them to himself. 7 In the time of their visitation they shall shine, and shall dart about as sparks through stubble; 8 they shall judge nations and rule over peoples, and the LORD shall be their King forever. 9 Those who trust in him shall understand truth, and the faithful shall abide with him in love: Because grace and mercy are with his holy ones, and his care is with the elect.

I am not excluded from pain just because I serve Him more now. I can only endure it more because I have faith that He is with me through it all - I try to look at the aftermath, my future me looking through this past trial and cheering her on "Chot, keri mo yan - look at me now! Fix your eye on the prize!"

I start at Day 1 again

I hated mistakes because as students we were trained to perfect a test, etc. I just allowed myself recently to love the imperfect me - it's hard but I really do try.

I believe I commit mistakes even if I try not to because it makes me more human, more compassionate of the people around me. Imagine the perfect me would definitely look down at "you people". You earn that sense of pride to exclude yourself from the rest.

I am thankful for my mistakes, I am thankful that I always have a "do it again Day 1"everyday for not drinking coffee or being nice to ALL, etc